Sunday, February 04, 2007

Solace

Though I breathe, I am not truly alive.
Broken,
No solace for an un-forgiven.
Endless black blood is my life.

I am swimming,
In my own despair,
Falling, weeping,
I have a demon's thoughts.

I cannot escape this hurt and anger,
Drowning, breaking;
The rush of a razor is a sweet pain.
Fallen, outcast, dark angels.

Bleeding, no god would save me now,
I will show this world one day,
Black roses are strewn on my course,
And my soul stains inner thought.

I am a lost child,
Twisting, splattering,
Dark soul cries out,
But no one listens.

This beginning of an end,
Gushing,
Tears of blood stream from my wrist;
I am fallen and will never rise.

Fallen, outcast, dark angels,
Ceaseless blood-spill,
I will show this world one day,
Though I breathe, I am not truly alive.

9 comments:

etain_lavena said...

So sad, so depressing, deep, bloody,painful,wasted...its how I often feel!

Penelope said...

There are parts of this poem that, if I didn't know better, I would have sworn I'd written myself.

How do you do that? :)

SaM-GiRL said...

Yeah. Very deep. You really got into that.

Lloyd Irving Bradbury said...

you are nuts that feeingh was convayed to me so it is a good poem

lettuce said...

a bit too painful for me, I'm afraid, it works too well

ish said...

Lately I think beauty is such a slut. She'll partner any journey even into the heart of darkness. There is no shortage of beauty in this poem, ... exquisite in the tragedy of your imagery.

ish said...

PS. Inc., I am pobably being thick but I can't get at the 'solace'. Help me with the title.

Inconsequential said...

:)

Thank you all again for your kind comments. Even the ones who think I’m nuts :) Though I would like to point out that most of my works are fiction, not really about me at all. If I was a suicide type I think I would have succeeded by now...

Oh, and Ish, you're not the thick one, I am, I couldn't think of a title, so just picked a pretty word out of the piece...it nearly got called 'razor', but that'd be just a little too trite :)
Though I could argue that the razor is the solace for times of despair...calling it a day is always an option if we believe we have free will...

Novel Nymph said...

My mouth dropped open when I read this one...you make me shiver!